Yes, I have not blogged in a while and i end up deciding to do it on my last day of spring break here in San Juan Del Sur. This has definitely been an interesting week for me spiritually. Me, Amy, and Jessica have had a great time here relaxing and spending some time at the beach and are getting ready to head back to Granada tomorrow.

I really am getting ready to go back. I have really missed my ministries this week. This part of mission trips are the weirdest for me. The week where we turn into tourists again:) I like walking around Granada with a sense of home and not feeling like i have to take pictures of everything like a new gringo in town.

But for one week i have turned into the picture taking gringo again in San Juan which is not a bad thing but I guess i just feel weird about it since the reality of how quickly the end of the trip is coming up and Im not sure if im ready to leave yet. I love my life here and the completely unamerican culture that im surrounded by everyday.

As excited as i am to get back and see friends and loved ones; it will be redicuously hard to leave the friends and loved ones i have came to know here. The thought of "what more can i honestly do here with only 2 months left" has definitely crossed my mind but i have realized that is such a lie and a temptation to take on a spirit of laziness during the remainder of our time here. I want to go back to my ministries next week with a new zeal and passion to really pour into them.

Another interesting thing that happend this week for me was God giving me some peace about what i might do this summer after the trip. I was worrying about it because the last thing i would want to do would be to go back home and sit around for the summer but i found an opportunity for a summer job to be a camp counselor. I think it would be a lot of fun so it is definitely a thought but im not sure yet.

Me and Amy were talking last night outside of our hostel and the conversation got a little off topic and the thought of "dating"God came up. At first it really caught me off guard when she said it and i think my response was something like "i understand what your saying but thats kinda weird" And honestly, that is a uncomfortable thought for me but why not date God. So many times I tell God with my actions "i dont want to be with you" and yet he keeps pursuing me.

Growing up i heard the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater" and for the most part i think its probably true and i probably would not be able to give somebody a second chance for doing that to me, but how often do i cheat on God when I claim that he´s the love of my life... he always lets me run back to him again knowing that I´m probably going to screw up again...i dont know...i just think its interesting how easily i judge people that do it to other people here but i do it quite a bit in my relationship with God...

anyway its just been on my mind since we were talking and felt like sharin so not sure what other peoples thoughts on that are but i hope everyone is having a wonderful week and also that my youth group back home had a great time at winterfest this weekend:)

jenn